Sweet Realisation(II)

Habits changed the way I wanted,
I did complete what I started.

It took me to unexplored meadows,
The need for climbing virgin peaks arose.

Realized my purpose was still incomplete,
Smiled and said I will live free.

In a flurry of commotion,
of that unpleasant yet romantic realization,
the lump of air, I couldn't swallow.
my heart screamed, I couldn't follow.

Wise did it make me yet again
taught me to embrace that pain,
to work with me ,
set myself free,
wake me up from my slumber,
taste life, no wonder.

Sweet Realisation

Ashamed I am of the latest event
and it feels like I got bitten by a serpent

It tells me my love was ne'er love
and that avidity was way above
My heart is torn to pieces
and the pain only increases

Of all these years of penance
I can feel the sheer absence
of what I had set out to achieve
to finally experience blissful peace

Aware I am now of my failure
saw it all in my life's trailer
The strength and the courage
got bogged down by that baggage

Took ample pride in who I made me.
Factors played their role, I now agree.

My heart now yearns for that path
penance commences: tell it not in Gath.

I Want to Do Something

When I read people writing about their feelings for the issue that touches them, the one thing I find common is, "I want to do something". Positive? Yeah. Not to forget the second thing, "but What?" Not so positive. And recently when I found myself writing a long comment about what can be done to make things better, I cursed myself at the same time. I haven't been doing all those things.

I want to do something.

but what do I do?

Looks like, they're me. And I'm them.
I wonder what stops me. My busy schedule? My lack of idea? Lack of resources? Lack of like minded people? My ego? Fear? WHAT?

I know I should be studying right now as I've got an exam tomorrow, but I sit here and wonder what have I done for the past three years? (The realisation of my purpose of life came three years back. Would save the discussion regarding it for some other post.) What have I done for these three years? Made plans. I would say in my defence. Nobody wants to sound like a jerk after all. What plans? Plans... and all I sorted out in this time would go circling in my brain. Yes, it wasn't futile. But at the same time, it ain't enough. People are dying! It ain't enough.

Sadly, I am forced to go my pace, afraid that I might lose it all. Yet, I know it's worth is more than mine. And I know life's worth is with one's purpose. Here I proceed, in my quest of wisdom to bring light. Come again I will. I got some unfinished business.

Which is the right side?

Let's get it straight. There is a left side and a right side. A right side and a wrong side. A coin has two sides. There exist two sides of an argument. Two sides of everything. Your side and my side.

While updating my profile, I wrote i seek self improvement yet I know I'm just desperate to be perfect in all my endeavors. Don't we all want to be perfect, but since we are not, we just condone it saying "nobody's perfect". But if we did become perfect, wouldn't there be nothing left to achieve? Wouldn't all change cease to exist? Wouldn't life be filled with monotony? Then what? Read on...

I'm perfect. I need no one. depend on no one. I do my work on my own. I build my castles from the ground and they reach the sky. And even sky is not the limit. I want more, I will have more. I'm perfect in all my endeavors.

And there I am.. I have everything. Nothing is a challenge enough to stir my blood. Nothing is worthy enough to draw my attention. The mere beings, are nothing but little pests buzzing away their time.

And I am doomed. Doomed to be a class apart - Doomed to be apart.

Lets come back. We all want to be different. Unique. Class apart. Do we really want all that? Or is it just that we want it because we can't have it, which is literally not what we want. Ohh yeah, I wrote self improvement and not perfection. Instinct told me that. But the question still remains. Am i seeking self improvement or am I running away from perfection? Or is it the case of "sour grapes"? Which is the right side?

A Sneak Peak Into Future

“Change! Change! Change!” Before you make any-more guesses, I must tell you that this is not about the global climatic change of changing trends in fashion, no more the rising and falling stock markets than the drift from 'K' serials to 'aparadhi kaun' types. It is the changing mega trends that have become the trademark of India's future. “Mega” because they cannot be easily reversed and have large ripple effects.

Expansion in every dimension: The Indian economy in general was mostly small. Remember that the Ambani family wealth seven years ago was about 5,000 crores – same as some first generation entrepreneurs. Take the Telecom market which has come a long way from 5 million connections to 180 million now. Foreign companies have for long bet on Indian people and it paid off. Now the market is working too! This implies more and more goods and services being India centric.

The much talked about and anticipated middle class is finally acquiring true scale. By 2006 the number of families earning more than Rs 2 lakh reached 100 million compared with 61 million in 2001. By 2010 it is expected to reach 173 million. Marry that with growing urbanization and no points for guessing; well over a third of all Lok Sabha constituencies will have a sizeable middle class and urban voter base. Not only be growth in consumption, it would lead to different politics all together. The middle class will demand reliable power, clean water, and comfortable mass transport systems. Most importantly, this will change the face of the educational scenario of the country. Owing to globalization, students and professionals are interacting with their counterparts all over the world in a coherent manner. The Nuke deal is a solution to Indian bombasting energy demands. The foreign trade component of India’s GDP, is now about 55%. There is greater self confident growth.

Considering the fact that half of India is under 25, a higher percentage of people will be in the working age till the mid 21st century, but this is only one facet. The other is: “Youngistaan” adapts faster to new trends and hence marketers are encouraged to focus on low cost products and services (we're broke, after all!).

The negative aspects include steady collapse in the country’s governance and politics shooting off the tracks, but the only thing that can be said about it is: “It depends”. After all, it’s the journey that matters in the end.

(If I missed something don't blame me, I might have “changed” my mind).

R. I. P.

The legend is no more! Fans all over the world moan the death of "The Legend" Mickel Jacson. The media is flooded with his music videos (right time to remember the Legend, right?). Not to forget, the praises of his moon-walk. Let's cash in on MJ's walk on the moon (and all the "glam" associated with it?).

Sure enough, death has befallen upon a transsexual self-racial paedophilic pop sensation and my weak heart does weep in agony for him, but, I'm more concerned about the farmers committing suicide.. What perturbs me more is the women being burnt alive.. I shed my tear on the plight of the vulnerable children without food and shelter! My heart aches to be aware of innocent kids being dragged out of their homes to fight at the front the battle of blood! Who's MJ?(Apology offered to all the fans.) Please allow me to clarify my stand. I have nothing against the pop star: i wasn't one of those kids. Sure enough, we should let his soul rest in peace and all the other souls too who would be awakened by our deafening campaigns.

...I ponder over it now. Do we care? Do we really care if millions have no access to food, water and shelter as long as we have our DVD player and some DVD's to dance to the tune of? Yes, MJ helped us a lot there as we didn't learn this in school. (or did we?)

"These papers are full of violence. Hey look! Bebo's size zero sizzles abroad. Cool!"

"Oh my God! Ten year olds fighting at the border! What's on the other channel?"

We are inveterately indifferent!

Let alone the unacknowledged, MJ was forgotten long ago and has been forgotten again today. But, one thing's for sure. "We, the hungry audience", will day after day get our share of salt and spice! Yum Yum. After all, it's show biz, baby!